If life is a blank piece of paper What would be draw on it.

If life is a blank piece of paper which it is, what would you draw on it.  That is a good question. I maybe would draw a sunrise because every morning my husband and I get up and walk to the beach to see the sunrise. Then we continue on and walk through the marsh where we see lots of wild life birds, deer, ducks, raccoons, squirrels. We meet people walking their dogs and just out getting exercise. We say good morning then go home. This sets our day and it puts me in a good mood to see God's creations every morning.

Or after breakfast I may draw a computer because I spend so much time on it. Visiting with friends I don't get to see. Making comments and trying to give encouragement if one of them are down. I also download my pictures from from walk so I can share these things with friends who may be up North and stuck in the house because of all the cold and snow. Just to give them something to smile at.

Later I may draw my bed because since retirement I always like a little nap. Then maybe clean the house or take out what to cook for supper.

But if I could draw I think I would draw something nice that my family and  friends would like to see.  Hopefully when they think of me they see something nice, something to make them smile.  So I wonder. If I am really a blank piece of paper when I arise in the morning, and you look at me in the evening what do you see?

The me I want to be!

There is a me I want to be living fully alive inside. I want to be a person who loves with her whole heart. One who shows  compassion and can forgive old hurts. One who can flourish with confidence inside that I am becoming the person who God wants to to be.

I know as I grow old. I do have more confidence. I know when I was younger I had no confidence and I could not forgive those that hurt me. My self esteem was none existent.  I guess when you are young we are so immature.

As I am older I think of the things that has given me the feelings of being the person I was meant to be. I wasn't the best at being a mom. I made terrible choices when I was young. But I have confidence that I was able to support my children and keep food, clothing, and shelter for us. I wasn't able to be home and be the 50's mom I would have love to be. But at the time I did not have the learning or ability to be the perfect little mom. But I was able to do excellent with the abilities I had. And even though we were poor, I made sure we did fun things. like camping, going rollerskating, doing ceramics. We would go out to eat and spend quality time when I wasn't working.

One of the greatest things I think I did well was, being with my grandchildren  when they were smaller. Being the best coolest grandma I could be. They gave me so much joy I think I have never loved or enjoyed life more than being a grandma. We baked and cooked together, watched movies, played together. I was like a little kid along with them. We all slept together in the same bed laughing and telling jokes. Now they are big the closeness is not there so much. But they gave me so much joy at just being the small innocent children that gave such pure love. Being loved by a child is so awesome and they make you a better person just by being.

I also do well with old folks. Listening, helping and just spending time with them. When my husband's dad was in nursing home I would go on days when my husband worked and fed my father-in-law and took him outside for air, and also with other people, taking them to doctor appointments or to the grocery store, maybe out to lunch or a movie, just spending time with them. When you get older the younger people in our lives just don't have time for you anymore. So I have enjoyed spending time with lonely older people. I learned allot from these people and they helped me to be a better person.

So there has been times when I was the best that I could be. Living fully with love and joy in my life.

The other best thing is my working. I was a lowly waitress but I was the best at that I could be. I loved being around people and I tried to make each of my customers feel like they were special.

I know God has a plan for us. And he wants us to be the best we can so so. Just open your heart and listen. And you will be the person you want to be.

Comments welcome. So tell me. How are you being the best you can be.

Life is good!

St Thomas VI

Life is good in retirement. I want to say how blessed my husband and I feel in retirement.  We never imaged in a million years that we would have the life we have now.

Fluffy the bear

We don't have allot of money for sure. We live in a small retirement and our Social Security. But we have done so many things in our retirement life that we never imaged. from living up in Cape Vincents and making lifetime friends there. Moving to new Milford and having a close relationship with my husband's children and of course the biggie meeting and playing with the black bears and having all the wildlife we had on our property.

Our 2007 Windsport

Theresa, Ashley and Eric

Joy, Brian, Corey, Carlee & Kyle

Selling our home in New Milford and living full time in our RV and traveling all over the United States especially out west. To spending a summer in Maine with my daughter and family..  Going to West Virginia and spending time with my other daughter.

Theron Oliver Page

Moving to Florida and spending time with my husband's dad before he passed. That was very special time we are so thankful for. My husband has so much peace knowing he could be there just to support his dad in his last days.

Sterling & wife Laura

Meeting my son Sterling after all these years. Seeing the man he has grown-up to be. Having him in my life is the most precious thing in the world.

Last but not least living in Florida and being able to travel on cruises and exploring Florida. Yes life so far has been really good to us. But I guess what I want to say is you don't have to have tons of money to get out there and do things you never imaged you would do.  If you dream it there is a way to do it. I guess I learned that lesson after having cancer for the second time and going through all the radiation and Chemo and having my husband having to care for me.  If you think you are doing to die it makes you think differently. So while you have your health enjoy life, love and family. Remember the clock of time is wound but once. Live life to it's fullest. Live, love with gusto for tomorrow you may die. Thanks be to God for all he has given me.  Comments are welcome. Give me your life's advice.

Trying to eat healthy!

How do you eat healthy when healthy food is so expensive? This is my question today. So many people in the United States are over weight or have diabetes. I think the cause of this is the cost of healthy food. You can go to a fast food place and eat off the dollar menu. My husband and i often go to Wendy's our favorite or McDonald's to have lunch off the dollar menu.  In the grocery store you can buy cheap TV dinners for as low as 88 cents. Snack foods are so much more cheaper than healthy food.  I think the government should maybe  do something so you can buy healthy food for cheaper and make unhealthy food more expensive.

Families with kids and seniors on low income tend to buy what is cheapest that they can afford. Plus the advertisements on TV is always showing sweets, fast food, and all the fat foods.  We really need to do something so we can turn around the obesity and diabetes in this country. Comments Please.

Grandchild in trouble!

Today, my big question is:  How do you help a grandchild who is going down the wrong road .  One of my grandchildren is really in trouble.. This grandchild thinks drug are cool. I have tried and tried to help. But they won't listen.  I am at my wits end. I know people have to make their own mistakes, but this mistake can be fatal. I pray on  it. But I feel so lost at how to help.  All comments are welcome.

To work or not to work!

My husband and I are retired but I was thinking. Should I get me a part-time job maybe a couple of days a week to get a little extra spending money. Being on Social Security you are on a strict budget so there is only a limited amount left over for fun things like going out to eat,  or taking some weekend vacations.
But, if I do that will I be tied to a job and not be off to go and enjoy those little fun thing. What to do? What to do?  Comments are welcome.

if something happens to your mate?

My question to contemplate. What do you do when your mate dies and your income decreases and you have no insurance for back-up?  Do you turn to your children and ask for help and move closer to them. Do you stay where you are and ask for government help? How do you deal with the loss of your soul mate and your income also.

This is one question that rates high on my list. At the moment both my husband and I are reasonably healthy. But he is 5 years my senior and he has no life insurance policy to keep me going except a small one for his burial.

I live far away from my kids in a place I love. but I would be so lonely if anything happened to my husband. I wish I had a handle on what to do. I guess I will just have to wait till the time comes and decide if I am the survivor.  All comments are welcome.

Just thinking!

I am going to take a page from my granddaughter Amber. I am going to write about things I think about since we won't be doing any traveling until August.

This is one of the subjects that has been on my mind. Is the world coming to an end in 2012 or soon?

Over the last few years the weather has been changing more hurricanes, tornadoes, violent weather of all sorts. Add to that the things humans have done to the environment. Plus just lately some really weird things have happened with birds and fish and no real explanation for it.

I am not the most religious person in the world but I am a Christian and I have read the bible so I wonder. Are these things signs that yes we are near the end? It is just things I think about. Plus if they are, do we have time to change any of it? Or is it our destiny?   I would love to hear your comments on this. So Please make them.
Lee

2010 year in review!

Leigh enjoying rum punch

Pirate at Blackbeard's castle

Leigh enjoying the ocean

The hot tub that hung over the side of the boat.

Manatees at Blue springs State park

Norma jeane and Me

Dan & Norms jeane taking their vows

Norma Jeane first sunrise in Florida

Norma jeane inspecting her her home

me at halloween party

my belly dance friends at halloween party

Norma jeane and Lori her daughter

Dan and Norma Jeane's first visit to Florida

Me and Norma jeane

Me and pirate Key West

Leigh and I Margariteville

Joy, Carlee and Kyle

Joy and me

Kyle

Norma Joy and I

Ronnae Leigh and i at her graduation

waiting in line at universal

Leigh and I enjoying bike week

Me bike week on Main Street

Leigh and Willie at Barberville music fest

Blue Springs

Our Christmas decorations1

This was our 2010 in review. A very good year. I thank you God for this wonderful year. I hope for everyone a wonderful 2011. Good Health and happiness.

It was a busy year for us. Especially me. I visited my daughter Joy in West Virginia. I met my sister's husband to be on that trip. I later attend my sister's wedding in Geneva on the lake in Ohio. My sister after retiring moved here to Florida and she and her husband have  beautiful home 10 miles from me.

We visited good friends in Orange City and we visited the manatees at Blue Springs there. I belly danced with friends and attended their party and also went to several red hat affairs.

We attended our granddaughter Ronnae's graduation and she came for a visit for 2 weeks and we visited the harry potter thing at universal studio. We really enjoyed her visit.
Leigh and I had 2 vacations. Key West and a 7 day cruise to St Thomas and St Marteen. Our health this year has basically been good. We rode the Harley during bike week and most Sundays with friends. Life for us this year has been good. Thanks be to God!