Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Losing Friends

This week we lost a dear friend. He was someone who has always been there for us. I just can't believe he is gone. It is so hard to find good friends, true friends and I have been blessed with a few really great fiends. This man was one of the best. he will be so missed.

But he is not the only one. We have a friend we met through traveling and working as a Workamper. A workamper is someone who works for free or just for a site and stipend while you are traveling and we have made some great friends along the way. Well one couple we met in Montana who lives in Florida has told us because of failing health he has to stop workamping because his doctor doesn't want him driving such long distances anymore.  I think there is more to the story because he was all packed and ready to leave for Montana and now he is not going.
He just would not do that when he made commitments in Montana. So I think another friend may be leaving us soon. Not for sure just a gut feeling for what he told us. 

We also have another friend who Leigh went to high school with and he is starting to have serious problems. So many friends so little time left.

Why is it when you get to a certain age you start losing your friends. It is so scary. My grandmother use to say she was the only one left all her family and friends have gone before her. I am so scared to lose all my friends and beloved family members of my childhood. I am scared because I am now the matriarch of my family the oldest member. And my husband the patriarch of his family everyone we grew up with and had for friends for years are leaving us. Where did all that time go? We feel in our minds so young yet our bodies and minds are deteriorating and our friends are dropping like flies.

Friday, May 13, 2016

Young at Heart

How come my mind feels so young like I am still a teen.

But in reality I am a 70 years old lady losing my strength and full of aches and pains. I go to do stuff I have always done and either can't do it or I hurt if I do.

You know I think the you that you are never ages. Your mind or soul stays always young but growing in knowledge . Would it not be nice if our bodies could stay as young as our mind.

Now I think I understand when we die our soul returns to God and our body get buried or cremated.

I have been thinking a lot lately about death and how my mind just feels so young like that first picture of me. Well I guess I will just just keep on keeping on and enjoy my life as God meant me to one day at a time.  

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

The bathroom Issue

OMG I can't believe all the talk about who can go in who's bathroom.  When I am out in public and I have to go to the bathroom. I head to the ladies room. But if said ladies room is busy and the men's room is empty I go there, because when I have to go I have to go. 

I don't care who goes in what bathroom as long they they keep the door closed and I don't have to see it. I am getting so sick of all this stuff. 

Like with the Rebel Flag. Thousands of soldiers died in war defending the rebel flag and there was tons of heroes who died so both sides. That flag is a part of history and should be allowed to fly. 

Just like religion whether you are a christian, a muslim, a hindu whatever you should be able to publicly pray or study your bible or koran this world is getting so bad. We should just love one another and not sweat the small stuff.

Mother's Day

Mother's Day is suppose to make Mothers feel special. But I did not feel special on Mother's Day. It made me wonder, was I a terrible mom? What did I do wrong. Did I not give enough love? Did I treat my kids horrible? I got phone calls from my son and my one daughter. My other daughter responded to my post on FB where I wished my daughters and my mothers in heaven and my friends a Happy Mother's Day. Her response was" you too." Wow. I know I am feeling sorry for myself but I just thought the one day that is suppose to honor your mom would have been different.

My husband took me for a ride to the beach on his motorcycle and we had lunch and a drink on the roof of Finn's watching the ocean my favorite place. My daughter in law sent me a card and my best friend up North in Cape Vincent.

So am I wrong to want more.